DO I EXIST???

Yeah!! I am here in this rush....
the rush on the roads, the rush in the coast,
traffic pulling me, vehicles pushing me,
I am falling, I am crawling,
heart is scared & mind is scattered,
nothing to do, nothing to search,
still imprisoned in the rush, no escaping, no bluff,
people gazing, people praying,
few enjoying, few crying, few trying,
trying to get me out of here,praying to saviour,
but I am not moving, I am clamped,
heartbeats stopped,body is cramped,
blooded hands & face is chaos,
eyes blocked off & drought,
noise is chiding, silence is hiding,
awful gathering still reciding,
Its unexpected, why I am not affected?????
suffocating vicinity, still freedom is rejected,
the virtual image, trapped in aviary,
but the soul is lone & drifting free,
truth lies & reality becomes unreal,
if soul is peaceful, abund pain feels fear,
so live with soul, body is mirror of illusion,
cause world is just a matrix of imagination...............