time never stops

A stone through window on the floor,

I ignored!!

A knock on the door, I ignored!!

Following me everywhere, even in dark,

Wakes me up from dream with a daunting spark,

What the heck is this creature????

Who are you & what you want?

If you need my help, then please I can’t,

I love to be being me on my own,

For god sake stop following me & leave me alone,

Shut up you Moron!!!!!!!!

I’m neither a human nor following you purposely,

I just flow progressively eternally,

From the drought through the rime,

Coz I’m the TIME……….

& I’m here to make you awake,

That you reach me before I escape,

I change each & every moment,

& no one can stop me, not even for a second,

So don’t waste me, don’t let me flow from your hands,

Be with me,

Live in me,

Use me,

Coz once I’m gone you can’t get second chance,

Aim at goal,

Even if you are sole,

Don’t let the lusts to mound, look all around,

Walk with me & search for the new opts,

Coz time is ImmorTal & “TIME never STOPs”……………

Anger(i m bad ultimate)

Anger & anger, all goes insane,

In my mind, in my vain,

Suffocating in breathe, flowing in blood,

Falling from eyes, emanating from every single word,

Unstoppable, uncontrollable, unexpected evil emotions are unpredictable,

Just like a puzzle unsolved,

I’m trapped, nothing to hold,

Helpless, hapless, breathless, caught in loneliness,

Don’t know what to do what not to,

Impossible to identify, who is who?

Shadow disappeared,

Is it me or it’s you??

Prayer, care, love, every such thing seems rare,

Needless blessings,

Useless wings,

No craves to fly,

Meaningless is sky,

Friendship, relationship, promises, hell to do with these worships,

Politeness fucked by attitude,

Courtesy is unreal as I’m rude,

What does matters is ego, anger or self-respect,

Coz I’m nobody & nobody is perfect…..

dark light

Eyes wide opened, glared up the high,
Bright blue umbrella appeared as sky,
Surrounding the whole from null to infinity,
Sorcerous scenes, pushing craves to fly,
Vivid lane rainbow, leading to heaven,
Clouds crafting mansions of imagination,
Every sight seemed to be jam-packed with glee,
But the whole scenario altered abruptly,
As the eyelids embraced each other,
Azure Ocean soon obscure with Sable River,
Eternal darkness,
Colossal fear,
Abound sorrow,
Drought tears,
Rendering the vision to go numb,
Words compelled to be dumb,
Still a dusky image is visible,
Feeble intensity but the pain is invincible,
It’s the deceased love, with memories still alive,
Imposed on my soul endlessly as the dark light……

the most painful word

Words in voices, words in noises,
Words of silence, waiting for choices,
Still I’m searching for words…..

A word to speak out the language of pain,
A word to reveal the tears hidden in rain,
A word to express sleepless nights in bed,
A word to show you that I was insane,

But where the hell words have gone?
Are they frightened from this painful moan?
The moans of a lone heart, the moans of broken dreams,
Moans waving in angst, moans compelled to scream,

I’m searching heart out, melting this dark cloud,
Outflanked by words but unable to sought,
Words are escaping, challenging for a chase,
I’m running but words everywhere, which should I gaze?

Yeah, snatched a word from this mob,
It has painless tears, so searching for new opt,
Now caught the LONELINESS, pain & tears all it means,
But it’s neither the reason for it nor the origin,

So I freed it indeed followed,
It is moving to its home though a shining road,
Sky-high buildings even bigger than dreams,
Winds of ecstasy & joy leaving behind mystic scenes,

I was lost in fantasy when loneliness knocked a door,
A beyond imagination, beautiful word appeared on the floor,
I was stunned, this can’t be the home of loneliness,
 Suddenly saw that word hiding sorrow behind bliss,

Tears were falling, the word was in deep pain,
Pretending to be smiling but drops were slopping again & again,
Soon I realized, this was the word I was searching for,
The word worshiped as God, the word called LOVE……

don't know for what?

From the deep in my heart, from the oceans apart,
I am still missing you, but I don’t know for what?
Tossed & turned in the pain,
Cried alone in the rain,
Ran behind your shadows,
In the lone crimson night,
but I don’t know for what?
I am still missing you, but I don’t know for what?
You came in my dream,
Made my love to redeem,
I felt your heartbeats,
Touched your lips with my lips,
Now I am breathing alive,
But I don’t know for what?
I am still missing you, but I don’t know for what?
I tried to forget,
tried not to regret,
For the love that I did,
For the love you betrayed,
But I don’t know for what?
I am still missing you, but I don’t know for what?

zero to infinity

I am alone in the crowd,

People gazing are arouse,

Expecting for an unreal deed,

Why don’t they control their own greed?

But I know, I have to stand-strong,

Coz they want me to write a song,

But I am ready & I will compete,

I will run for life instead to complete

A defeat is better than escaping,

Winning is less valuable than participating,

So I am writing with my soul,

A few lines smattered to become whole,

Though I am mannerless but showing the dignity,

Imprisoning the world in words from zero to infinity…….

shame on me

i saw the life in slum, no time for love
no fun,
no couch to sleep, no shed to hide in sun,

all they need is "not the LOVE", survival is all above,

survival in the flame of indigence,

survival in the game of ignorance,

still they are dying & losing hope,

their trying is not enough to cope,

falling on clay,whenever trying to fly,

slices of broken dreams prick in eyes,

flood of blood, waving when they cry,

but i am unaffected, coz i am gazing to that bun,

bun of my own dreams, for which i have to run,

eternal race but i'll, coz i want that bun,

i'll run across the sea, i'll run over the slum,

albeit i can help them, i won't, coz i don't shame on me,

coz its their own fate & they can't put the blame on me. . . .

all i need is love...

All I need is the love, all my greed is the love,
But what does love mean, all I know is not enough,
Is it all about those bullshit sex or fuck?
I can buy it in market by spending some bucks,
Is it the way you care 4 someone?
Coz mom cares for me more than anyone,
Is it the freedom to share whatever is hidden in your mind?
I share all my concealed truth with my best friend,
Is it sacrifice without caring for own sorrow,
I sacrificed all my dreams, hoping for bright morrow,
Or, is it all about TRUST?
I trust GOD from heart, having no rust,
Then what the HELL is this love?
All I guess is a feeling, filled with all above………….

bad & boorish(i am bad extreme)

I am suspicious, i am mysterious,

Albeit steady but seems to be precarious,

No etiquettes & courtesy is ridiculous,

Pan-public prologue but unanimous,

Curiosity arouse in your mind, orchestrated to instigate,

Ample strive from wits yet distant from culminate,

Craving for a nascent panorama of immense delusion,

Piously goad to endorse in the abyss of confusion,

Don’t punch your fist in the air like scoff mendicant,

Coz hailing of secretes may obliterate your existence,

Just use your prudence don't act like optimistic,

Coz my maxim is an enigma for morons & rustic,

Else your smattered parody of truth will amuse the mirror,

& immanent agony will evoke colossal fear,

So don't transcend you inhibition to be an accomplice,

Coz you already know that "I am BAD & BOORISH"

i want back!!!

I want my days back, i want those insomniac nights back,
I want that time back, i want my life back,
Come with the optimistic ray of elated morrow,
And take away this colossal cloud of sorrow,
Else take back the memories of past,
It’s really suffocating and killing me out,
I know there is no way to express what I want,
I wish I could ever show you the wounds of my heart,
Don’t know why can’t you see my tears,
I guess you don’t need me coz your life is full of cheer
But one day you will miss someone & I will be that,
Then you will want me back, you will want my love back…..

Expectations....

Expectations of infinite desires, Expectations of endless dreams
Expectations of flying high & going beyond the limits
Expectations from life & luck, Expectations from god & all its stuff
Expectations of frost from burning sun, Expectations of warmth from frozen moon’s light
Expectations of dreaming dark from chilling day, Expectations of perky day from crimson night
Expectations of painless grief from sorrow, Expectations of delight from every morrow
Expectations from mistakes for mercy, Expectations from truth for courtesy
Expectations from crowded roads for loneliness, Expectations from mob for togetherness
Expectations of ease from way, Expectations of swift from destiny
I expect care from you but you expect share from me
I stay in your heart yet oblivious from you, you are running in my soul still unaware from me
Sailing the same boat & following the same ray, but still we stride in different way
it happens coz we expects in relation, though love is life but foremost is expectation
& it’s unsurprisingly our nature coz we human are god’s creature
Who gave us life to flip,but always expecting prostration in Worship……………

ALPHABETS OF GLOBALIZATION

Allergic species of alphabets causes itching in my mind,
Like rashes, lonely frail but gigantic when unite,

Words carrying meaning in accord with linked dialect,
Languages holding cultures but biased,

Such a biased word the SUN whenever screaming,
Compelling east to run for reverie when west is still dreaming,

One colour of sun symbolizes one earth’s existence,
Conversely spectra signifies the seven subsisting continent,
Colours with variable wavelength, continents with unique independence,

Though I love independence but specific day is appalling,
No matter its gala of 14th august or 15th’s reveling,

Each parallel day retells story of slavery,
Concurrently imparts the feeling of diversity,

Discrimination based on race, extermination based on dialect,
Annihilation based on region, termination based on religion,

Despite of existence of immense segregation,
Still each independent slave proclaims globalization………………..

DO I EXIST???

Yeah!! I am here in this rush....
the rush on the roads, the rush in the coast,
traffic pulling me, vehicles pushing me,
I am falling, I am crawling,
heart is scared & mind is scattered,
nothing to do, nothing to search,
still imprisoned in the rush, no escaping, no bluff,
people gazing, people praying,
few enjoying, few crying, few trying,
trying to get me out of here,praying to saviour,
but I am not moving, I am clamped,
heartbeats stopped,body is cramped,
blooded hands & face is chaos,
eyes blocked off & drought,
noise is chiding, silence is hiding,
awful gathering still reciding,
Its unexpected, why I am not affected?????
suffocating vicinity, still freedom is rejected,
the virtual image, trapped in aviary,
but the soul is lone & drifting free,
truth lies & reality becomes unreal,
if soul is peaceful, abund pain feels fear,
so live with soul, body is mirror of illusion,
cause world is just a matrix of imagination...............

Trends of rituals

An uninterrupted journey from past to present,
& still gazing towards future thats called trend,

a trend proposed by ancestors for their survival,
but still alive deadly thats the ritual,

in every era every civilization gave birth to their own culture,
& every culture inherits its own trends & rituals to make itself vigour,

but is it necessary to hold those restrictions in the present?
does its existence still composed of the same importance?

what has done was the demand of that time,
a spiritual deed of past in present may be a crime?

what they did was upto their level of intelligence,
should we carry their burden without applying our own sense?

nothing remains static,even nature changes its nature,
then why change is not requisite by gods best creature?

we are still dependent on that,whose importance has died,
we are still not accepting the change if someone has tried,

why we still hesitating from crossing the hurdles of limits?
why we don't create our world with our own soul & spirit?

CITY STREETS...............

moon has escaped from the sky but sun yet not rose
a spectre silence is existing on the lonely roads


still a feeble sound is coming out from this peace
i fantasise its the suffocating moan of city streets


it may be the wound of loneliness that compel it to whine
coz its the scenario which is out of phase from the day time


when vehicles were rolling over city streets & was crowded
quite akin to the mirror image when our life is delighted


when along with the joy we are having numerous mates
but as the cloud of sorrow vacates the reasons of ecstasy
no one remains our companion not even our own fate


that’s why i love to walk alone on lonely city streets
& we share our feelings just by sensing each other’s heartbeats