USELESS FELLOW

when are you going to hell,i am waiting for that
coz you make me bored by your foolish talk


& don't dare to say "from the beginning i told you"
coz you have never told that what to do


you teach me the thing that you never knew
so its  better to shut up your rubbish talk & keep it with you


if ever i will get a chance,i will kick your ass
coz when you teach me my mind got hanged up & crashed


you make me feel dozy,when you give your hogwash disciplinary lectures
i am warning you to stop else you will get countless fractures




its my misfortune that i have to be in front of you
otherwise i could have fucked you asshole without giving you any clue


so stay safe & don't mess with me....you bastard
coz when my mind will go mad you will be busted...........

Mannerless(I AM BAD continues.....)

you say that i am mannerless,yes i am........
coz i am the one who has no shame.......

manner is the thing,i always carry on my kick.....
& if you expect courtesy from me then think of yourself a bitch..

coz i dont know to show respect to those who don't deserve..
so my behaviour is infectious for those who love to be preserve....

& don't care for it,coz carelesness is my stubborn habbit..
coz in this race of blind selfishness,don't wanna be a looser rabbit..

your
love & fear
praise & desire
keep it with you dear............
coz i fuck all these like flake of smoke & as sip of beer......

& its me coz my soul has lost inside me..
so my evil excellence is drifting free...

& i cant forfeit this attitude just to make you feel glad..
so its better to be mannerless coz "I AM BAD"

we are same same but different....

you are quite different from me but your story is same as of mine...
when i was playing game of life,you did the same at that time...

was that the similarity of our fate or just a coincidence???
but you felt the same pain as i got from my relevance....

but now your luck has coped with my fortune.......
and you are diving & dreaming in my rune.....

even now there exist a misfortune that is keeping us stray..
though we are staring at same destiny yet never meeting on the way..

but a crimson ray of hope is still alive in my spirit.....
and i am waiting for the time when fate will be at my "KICK"........

MORAL FIBRE..........

just take a look at me & see the mirror...

you & me are human but still why not similar...

think for a while can you find any answer????

there exist no diversity except "MORAL FIBRE".....

now whats MORAL FIBRE??? its nothing but a trait...

its not only love but still quite akin to that...

its a feeling that we feel for something...

for which we are ready to do anything...

its the dare to do what we think is right...

risk everything at any cost & fight for it if requisite.. 

to save only that one we gamble our future...

& we set our felicity on fire to make their way easier...

we sacrifice our smile just to wipe up their tears...

but that one doesn't exist in everyone's life.....

thats why even being human being we are alike:-) (-:

BAD GAME(return of I M BAD)

ITS TIME TO PLAY THE GAME,guess who am I???

 I am not cute,nor a decent guy..... 

when you will imagine something about me....

 I will force you to have one more try......

 coz if you wish to explore me enough.... 

then its as easy as to touch the sky......

 because when you will think I am innocent..... 

then i will show you my evil..... 

And when you will feel I am an angel.... 

Then I will convey that I am devil!!!!! 

 So making a belief about me is viral for your sense....... 

So,,,just stay safe from my sinful intelligence..... 

Thats why I am feeling quite glad.....

 When I m cofessing THE REALITY..... "I AM BAD!!!!!!!!"

wat i want???

i want to live not to survive.
not the way life goes but the way i feel alive.

even though i have got a limited sky.
neither have i got the wings to fly.
still my desires pushing me to go high & high.

life isn't easy for anyone nor is mine.
its always giving some hope n some reasons to cry.

sometimes i wonder fate rules the control of our life.
& i should let the things to go on its way..useless is a try?

then have i got the liberty to breathe in this world??
if i suppose to answer a sure "YES" then why??

my desires......

oneday somebdy told me i don't know wat i want. . . .
Bt i thnk,i hvn't got wat i want. . .

I guess my desires r beyond my possible range. . . .
Although nthng is impossible in this world. . . .

Stil i hvn't found a way to my destination. . . .
Does it needs a heartout try or motivation. . . .

I don't knw bt this search has many complications. . . .
N sometimes it causes a storm of frustration. . .

N nw i feel i can't sustain it upto expectations. . . .
So i hv left all this on my fate's decision. . . . . .

7 days of my ruined love story...

7 DAYS OF MY RUINED LOVE STORY

its late night and i am scared from the darkness of lonliness..

so i have started to write a story to avoid fearfulness...

its not any alien fantasy but based on the notion of reality..

its the excursion of SEVEN unforgettable DAYS of my RUINED "love story"...

(DAY-1)

It was almost half a year passed away with you..

but that day i met a girl i never knew...

it was the day first time i fallen in your love..

felt that you are the one whom my eyes were in search of...

(DAY-2)

A bright sunny morning when we met in the street..

it was your B'DAY dear but you never gave that treat:-))

but was never less than that when you bit off a chunk of chocolate..

and after touching your lips the rest was under my teeth...

(DAY-3)

it was a mystic evening when we had fun outside..

i was sitting under the SHADOW of tree and you were beside...

we talked about the things we always used to..

but whenever i tried to read your face you turned away your eyes...

(DAY-4)

again an evening but was out of phase from other days..

because you appeared different in the DRESS...which i gave...

and you blessed that moment with the aroma of your soulful love..

when me and you were walking together on a lonely way...

(DAY-5)

The night came when you aware of that i am your WISH..

and the day witnessed our first confess of love face to face...

it was the first time i held your hand and CLASPED you in my ARMS..

and that feeling is still alive even though that moment was very less...

(DAY-6)

then there was a day when dream came true from ashes of ruined love of mine..

you were with me alone but for the LAST TIME....

we

EMBRACED,

HUGED,

KISSED each other and loved the way i was always wondering..

although it feeled heavenly but was noting more than a CRIME...

(DAY-7)

but ALMIGHTY did't accepted the climax so pleasantly..

and we were AGAIN together but this time unfortunately...

you came to decide that YOU WANT TO BE WITH ME forever..

but all ENDED uP with GRIEF of separation for lifelong journey:-((

thus you proved my love was a sin and it was fake...

and even if life is a race....i was always too late....

although the love has't last to the happy ending but the STORY is all OVER...

and its a new morning so i have to start my journy again like a ROVER.....

unreaL pain..............

once again i m alone,n my wound has started 2 moan..........

my heartbeat is vibrating n it's echo is healing through my axon,


n i m unable to conceal dis pain even if its beneath my range...

why i m feeling lonely,when nobody is there 2 b my soulmate???


this akward feeling always creates inconvenience in my mind..

n cause me 2 imagine beyond d range inside which my perception is bind..


now i hv strode off in pursue of intuitively plausible answers...

probably its inadequency of dat loomed love which i used 2 dreamed of...


still why i m drifting in the fond of dis unreal affection??

has my mind gone numb due to this imaginative seduction???


wl i ever b able to surpass this emmanent grief???

or i wl always b wandering in search of felicity as a geek???

absolution.......................

"Now i m aware". . .
reality is dichotomy of imagination. . . .


"but i am where?". . .
in this galaxy or in any unreal situation?. . . .


"just take a look here". . .
what are you feeling about me by your perception?. . . .


"don't you want to share?". . .
but why is it more worse than your expectation?. . . .


"hold on. .don't feel scare". . .
you are not convicted for it,you have got absolution. . . .


"but now i need spare". . .
because its not the ending its just inception. . . . .

worry.......

I m complety lost. . . .my dear,
nthng left inside me. . . barring a fear. . . .

How wl u survive when hope is feeble. . . .??
By this imagination. . .my heartbeat just cripple. . .

Wl ur smile evr blossom as it was wid me. . .??
or it wl dissapear in making others happy. .???

Wl evr my wish 4 u b true. . . . .??
N till when my prayer wl bless u in dis journey. . ??

I hv nvr worried abt happiness of mine. . . .
Bt how wl i let u go when u r crying. . . .??

U r feeling guilty 4 wat u did wid me. . .bt its nt ur mistake. .
It was me who reached to U quite late. . . . . .

Don't cry 4 me dear. .i wl manage it 4 U. . . .
Coz my lv is alwys urs n it wl nvr change bt alwys gaze 4 U. . . . .

i m bad.....

Yeah . . . .i m back again . . . . .

and i hv gone bad again. . . . . .

Perhaps more worse than i was evr before. . .

N this time my harshness is even more pure . .

Its soaked in d mystic aroma of selfishness . . .

N my soul n divine hv burnt in my cruelness. .

No space left for fake realities like kindness n love. .

Just murdured those feelings to go far n above. . .

now each n every stride aims towards d perfection. . .

N it can't b divorted by any seduction. . .

Its d begining of a bright sinister story. . . .

N its d only way,i can persuit my lost glory. . . . . . . .

you n me....but nvr we........

its d same night as it was always before.......

same stars.....shining in the sky.......

with the same moon light reflecting from d seashore......

n d same air flowing though d earth's core.....

but this time its so hard to breathe.......

don't know why?but its too suffocating indeed........

time seems to b stoped here......

n d paths seems to go no where.....

its d time.....i m feeling loneliness.......

n caught with d fear of crimson darkness.......

fear.....how i wl sustain this breathless time..

wl i ever b able to hide d memories under d grime.......

memories...of d past which heals me again n again.....

n everytime it comes with lot more pain.......

pain....that U r no more with me...U have passed by.....

but still why there exist more U inside me than I.....??????

no choice .............................

want 2 forget U,,,,,bt how cn I ?
If u alwys stay in my eye. . . . .

want 2 close them forevr,bt i can't. . . . .
coz i knw,,,dat. . . . . . u don't want....

I m in ur heart,bt in ur life. . .exist else. . .
n can't do anythng coz i m helpless. . . .

each n evry desire scares to fly. . . . .^^
nt a single hope dare 2 stay alive. . .

no choice is left 4 me,still i hv to decide. . .
wat i want my happiness or 2 prove. . . u r right??

i just hate god..................

i just hate GOD....n i hate him too much,

why?????

not such a huge reason its just acrimonious,

i hate him coz i m free 2 do this,

atleast its d thng where almighty is helpless,

neither he can force me to praise his grace,

nor he can fullfill my never ending wishes..

.......................................................

only he can do is d punishment imposition,

bt this time i m ready 2 pass any ammunition,

after all i m habituated to all these thng,

wat hv i got here exept d honour of being human being,

few moments filled wid happiness n joy,

bt evrytime followed by some reasons 2 cry,

D moment i thought now my life is little bit stable,

D very next second he put me on d zero level,

wat he want 2 show by this act???????

nthng is in human's control.........only dis fact??

i thnk he 2 wants attention 4m his creature,

he is also SELFISH same as human nature,

n i just hate selfish though i m that,

so how can i make gOD feel gud unless i m nt glad???

missing part

Months have gone but the day has repeated itself,

U have gone but your memories r still in my heart not on the shelf,

It is as alive as it was, not covered with grime,

Everything has remained constant except d Time,

I can't hear u but your word r vibrating through my ear,

I can't say anything but what my heartbeat says, i know you can hear,

Every moment we had spent together are alive in my eyes,

Whenever i closed them i could always feel U nearby,

But with my eyes open i can never see you again,

& when i feel it i feel too much pain,

But by remembering your words i always sustain,

What happened if you are not here, your memories r always alive,

& that even "GOD" can’t take away, till my last breath survives.......

U r nt mine........still i m urs.....

if love is nt crime then how can i be punished????

if i m not dead then how can my love be finished??

if u love me too,then why can't U be mine?

if i am late in your life then GOD is d TIME??!!!!!

i don't want to lose u & u think the same way....

but still we know that we have to stray...one day

i know u r not mine but still i luv u............

who cares for d future,just let me do wat i want to.

i'll make u happy and take away your tears,

i m always with u,nvr think u r lonely n nvr feel any fear,

if u need me just remember me & make me aware,,,,,,

i'll hug u & say don't worry dear...i m here,,,,,

so,let the God to do watever he wants!!!

U just keep smiling for me, FOREVER :) :) :) :) :) :)

WAIT............

always face 2 face but remain far away,

waking on d same path but never met on d way,

telling everythng from eyes,but through lips nothing i can say,

u r in my heart but in my arms u can never stay,

I always want 2 b with U but one day i have 2 stray,

but before that i want atleast a single day,

when u n i b lying together on d clay,

n in that moment i wl say everything 2 u that i can never convey,

n i wl love u so much that u wl never ever feel lonely,

i had prayed 4 it 2 come true n i wl always pray,

still who knows i wl ever get this chance or not,

but i wl WAIT 4 this n wait till d ""DOOMSDAY"".....................

emotion as d motion in life

why we usually face strange situations???????????????????????

why we feel hurt n got depressed on some occasions????????????

wats d cause of it?is there any allegation???????????????????

searching a reason?just imagine a life without emotions......

how would it feel? when we dont feel any feeling?????????????

that means there wl b somthng missing...?????????????????????

bt wat???it may b some interesting useless thing.............

which is always connected to human as a string...............

bt cut this once...n leave emotions..n c how it goes?????????

no emotions means no happyness n no sorrow...................

that mean no care abt future untill morrow...................

no emotions means no enemies n no 4ndz forever...............

no one is neither ur own nor anyone is stanger...............

no emotion means no attraction towards gods any creation.....

no attraction means no likes either object or person.........

n no like means no longer love wl exist......................

bt a life without love can u persist?????????????????????????

i guess one may say no love means no brake up n no cry.......

bt it also means that there wl b no joy......................

no love may give u no pain...................................

bt without any happening till when u can sustain?????????????

its harsh as its reality,only love is d symbol of humanity...

only emotion is d difference b/w human n wild creations......

there wl b no longer existance of human without emotions.....

so feel d world n feel everything arround u..................

feel d joy it wl surpass d sorrow,just try u can do..........

one more day

One more day,one more ni8,
days to enjoy n ni8 to dream in pale moon light???
Is it so,No............no..........no...........
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One more day,one more challange,
challange 4m which u r unaware n which is strange,

One more day,one more fight,
fight 2 b alive n war 2 prove dat u r right,

One more day,one more pain,
pain which is endless n beyond how much u can sustain,

one more day,one more race,
race to win ur dreams which r waiting 4 a chase,

one more day,one more dare,
dare to do wat u have'nt done bt which alway makes u scare,

one more day,one more mistake,
mistake to teach something new u n make u more accurate,

one more day,one more experience,
experience to know d cruel reality of existance,

one more day,n lot more days to come next,
days to survive untill my last breath.........